log 9; looking at things
the smell of freshly unboxed plastic for a kiddie pool
i miss it. i'm not sure what reminded me of it, exactly, but...it meant that it would take some time, and we're not there yet, but you know. patience. and stuff.
these books i'm reading...they are about sad adults. sad adults who want a single way to look at the world—a view that will change them, save them. thats the impression i get anyway.
i can't really think of things this way...life, in such simple terms. this is for a few reasons:
- (and most importantly) i am very young. my life is very young—and my experiences. it seems to me like its very easy to take the easy way out when you feel like a waste. you let yourself start thinking simply, as lives as less than individual in all the ways they are...i imagine its much easier to be self centered. to think of yourself as a basis.
which is understandable! you've been alive for what feels like forever. it IS forever. it's, what, nearly 40% of your life? you think you have some idea of what its like. of what things really are. but i don't think so. i don't think anyone knows that, but especially not you. you're missing something. something that the children aren't missing, and something that the seniors aren't missing. we all need each other to try to understand. philosophy is important for this reason: we have to listen to each other through the times. we have to try looking back, and forward, and in front of us.
it's probably so easy, too. it certainly is for me now, so why wouldn't it be later? to read something, read someone's thoughts, or ideas, if its fiction... and then just think of things that way. just reference one thing. well that's silly, and you gotta avoid that. you cannot think of things simply unless it itself is simple. kindness is simple. kindness is to be kind no matter what. society is not simple. people are not simple. your actions—individually—are very simple...but your thoughts are rarely just as such. your actions—all and all—are very very complicated, because after one, your actions become more. your actions have consequences, and so on, and so on, forever.
hope is simple. keeping hope isn't, but, you know.
- it's silly. it must be easier to see the flaw in these things—and not just see, but consider and apply the knowledge of the flaw—when you've been thinking these sorts of ways your whole life. there are some people out there who really don't think about things in the whole, like philosophy tries to get you to. that's why a guy can watch fight club at 20 and believe tyler durden. they don't know any better!
i don't know much better. but i try to base things in what i do know, about myself and others...i should probably be educated. but maybe it goes to show how little education matters when it comes to little things, hands on things?