log 6
this isn't even that bad. it's basically summer. it's basically summer because my window is open and i am listening to my summer songs.
earth is great, people are great. i will have to do work. not now, but, later, i will have to do new things, and it will suck. it will suck almost the exact same way it has always sucked to do new things. think of when you walked into your english class with mr fucking macdonald bro. horrendous! you sat down and went wow this is AWFUL lmfao. and it was. it was awful. it was awful the entire year. well, that's how it's going to be. doing adult things will be the same way! and slowly you will get better at it, get better at being someone somewhere, and get better at accepting shit.
my room is tidy. it's quite clean, actually. i'm still a bit sick, but my room is tidy. my window is open and my clothes are clean. i ate breakfast. i am behind in schoolwork, but not much, and i think i can catch up. i am scared my friends don't like me, but they probably do.
in the summer, i will visit ontario. i will visit my grandmother for a while. it'll be very...difficult. but i will do what she would like, and will come up with stuff for us to do, because i love her, and i want to spend time with her. maybe. maybe i'll see my dad.
i will apply for jobs, and eventually get one. and it will be awful and new. but hopefully it will be full of routine, and it will be OK. it will be like school but better, and i will get paid for it. i am registered for my uni courses, and i am doing everything i can. sometimes, i will miss opportunities. and sometimes i will fail, and be setback. but i am young. i will be young forever! there is always time and space to try again.