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What am I even. I don't know. It makes me Sad and A Bit Mad and jusf UPSET!!!! I'M upset.
I hate talking about how I don't sleep. No one but my internet boyfriend seems to actually understand. I am not depressed because of my lack of sleep. I am not sleeping because of my depression. I don't relish in not sleeping. I hate it. I love sleep more than ANYTHING. Sleep is my FAVOURITE THING. EVER. Dreams are my EVERYTHING. JESUS!!!
BUT at the same time, I understand them!!! It's hard to see someone be nonchalant about a destructive habit and not take advice, or even admit the problem. It can hurt. It can be really....frustrating. To be around. So I'll stop talking about it! I guess! Which I ALREADY DO BYBTHE WAY!!!!
I ALREADY try not to mention my sleeping patterns. I try not to mention ANYTHING personal, these days. Because!!! I don't like being a sad person to be around! But fuck it is SO HARD and I know they think they're looking out for me, but jesus, guys. It makes me want to Stop Talkiingg!!!
And The fucking Pitt. God. People keep saying Robby should kill himself, genuinely, and it's! Well it makes me sad!!! Of course it does, man!!!!! I understand him to a degree and see myself in him and I know it's meaningless cuz its fiction or whatever but Fuck, it doesn't make me wanna seek help! Or talk to my friends!! Or even show Signs!!!!!