CONSIDERATION
Not Inconsiderate? Not Inconsiderate? Do you Find yourself considering people? Do you ever think about others? Do you spend Any Time At All thinking about the people around you as more than above or below you, in relation to You? Have you ever thought about someone elses day? Like, actually thought about it? What the fuck are you doing?
Have you ever thought before speaking? Thought about more than how it'll impact you? Thought about your proposals before proposing? What is it, then? Do you need to be hurt? Do you need to be scolded after, to be told exactly what it is you did wrong after the fact? What are you Doing??? What do you not understand?
We are the SAME. You need to understand this. Our emotions are easily swayed. I have spent so long keeping that to myself. I wonder if you ever learned how!!! Or have ever even thought about it enough to CONSIDER learning how to keep shit to yourself. Why am I getting punished for hiding my emotions??? Jesus fucking christ I Want to be around you So Bad why do you keep reminding me how little you actually think?
Because what did you just fuck me over for? What exactly? So you didn't have to sit by yourself for a total of LITERALLY 3 minutes? FUCK YOU!!!
I'm sorry that it costs so much to care about you. I am so so so sorry, because I understand, and it's probably why no one really cares about me either!!! You don't know how long it took to get where I am. So many hours of thinking. And I can't imagine being the way I am, or a way like it, and not spending that time actually coming to any conclusions. So I'm sorry. But not really. Because I'll never get fed up enough with it. With you, I mean. And I will never stop fucking myself over for you because I love you. And I know what it's like to be this way. I'm sorry