And at once,

05 Feb, 2026

I just kept thinking to myself: the moment I die will feel just the same as this one. It’s not a thing forever in the future; I will be in that present just as surely as I am in this one. And I will end. I’ve never been a religious man, and I always say I take comfort in the idea of a peaceful oblivion but that’s a lie. I’m terrified.

and it's sad to know that we are not alone
and it's sad to know there's no honest way out

I'm tired. And my eyes have been stinging for a few days now. Is this what it feels like being s2 Jonathan Sims. Cuz what're we DOING!!! I guess I'm thankful that TMA taught me about Dread and being Lost and Paranoid. Because I am. I am all of those things, these days! I just...wouldn't have the words, if it weren't for Jonathan Sims, Head Archivist of the Magnus Institute, London. So that's nice. It feels nice.

Well, I'm adding onto this a bit later, and I was wrong. It's what sTHREE Jonathan Sims feels like. Ahh.. Actually, I don't know that I'm THAT bad.

in this life we lead
we can conquer everything
if we could just get the braves to get out of bed in the morning

Until I reach an end that may be more gruesome, but is fundamentally no different than that which awaits us all.