today
I'm losing it. Holy shit. I simply can not get away from myself and that sucks SO UMFUCKING BAD. i could be in sucb a good mood dude. I can tell. I can just tell. Id be so happy if i just. God dude. Fuck off. Just actually fuck offff ddue.
Everyhring feels just so horrendous. I ned to take these ckothes off and i need to be asleep. Not because I'm feeling tired at the moment but because if i Tbink for too much longer holy shit I'll go insane. Ljke for rreal. All of these clothes are awful. These people, around me, are awful. This is. Awful. I cant do this.
Obviously i can and im going to. There is no alternativ3, ans no running will fix me. Why the FYCK did i put lotion on am i INSANE ? LMFAOAOAO???? HOLY SHIT. i am just. This is pissing me off. Uglyyyy dude and i dont Care about ehat other people think reakly but its ust about a state of being and holu fhck dude this js bad. This is so bad. So so so so bad. My book. I do not have it. And i dont have my hat. Holy shit like did i WANT TO DIE WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING. I need to go home and talj to No oneeeee bro no one
dude actually what the hell was i thinking. lotion. lotion on my FACE? LMFAOAOAO??
AND MY HAIR. I SWEAR TO. I. SOMEONE. DUDE. THIS IS HELL. NOT ONLY MY CLOTHES BUT MY FUCKING. HAIR IS EVERYWHERE. AND I GO TO FUCKING. GET RID OF IT. OH.. LOTIONEY FUCKING HANDS. HOLY. SHIT.
this is so ridiuclous. the thing that fucks me up is lotion and some hair. GAHH BUT I JUST. i dont know how this happened. i've been doing so good. and any time i forget to eat i make up for it. i cannot believe this bullshit. holy shit. guy got over his fucking issues just to thug out the exact same consequences. ADHD.!!!! FUCK!!!
and my friends. are going to be so supportive. and i will have a very very hard time advising them to read anything here let alone hear anything about me at all. i'm so fucked man. so so so so so fucked.