thoughts #2
i curse every one who does not understand how it feels to live this way. to be so useless that i can not force myself to do tasks. it hurts and feels so fucking bad.
i hate them. they compare it to being lazy, whcih is something only they get to experience. i don’t get to be lazy!!! i just want to die!!!! because i could be being productive!
this feels awful. yeah, i just want attention. for sure.
i just wish i coupd actuallh fo the thingd that i want to do. fuck man